It Ain't Over!

On my online support group today, somone posed the very sad question, 'if the Lord God Himself spoke to you and said, "My son you can choose to pass from this current life now if you want to, or you can choose to stay". What would be your response?'

I've learned not to judge this question, I'm not in their body, I don't know how much pain they are in. So many are so, so worse off, having lost their spouses, their jobs, their homes, their hope.  On my really bad days, I used to even ask that question myself.   It's all about learning to see around the illness and not through it, and oh, is that so hard to do.  It's about not giving up on your life but finally giving in to your body. For now. 

Someone linked a video to me that might have done more good than the last five years of self-processing I've done.
Today, I want to lie in my bed, windows closed, ceiling fan slowly spinning. I feel like a mac truck came and hit me in the middle of the night. After watching this video, I'm not going to.  Today, I'm going to go sit on that sailboat and enjoy the sunshine.  It may hurt, and I may not last too long, but what a way to spend this gift of a day.

If you do nothing else for yourself today, please click on this link below, and hit play.

http://edsstory.com/films/it-aint-over.php#view-film

It's so ain't over, baby.