I've been thinking a lot lately about what it is that I am trying to say here, what the purpose of all of this is. I kind of lost my voice for a while and I think it was for good reason, things got a bit to self-serving. I felt so strongly for so long that I needed to do it, but now it is time to stop. focus. and write with a purpose. What am I trying to say, what am I suppose to say?
I'm sure you've gathered the whole anger thing, the frustration with docs...thing, the why me thing, the i didn't really like my former career choice..yep, thing. I. I. I. I. now it's time to move on. close those doors and start living.
I wish everyone could have a period of time in their lives like my last few months have been. Completely clarifying. completely cleansing. completely honest. I've completely, totally, wholeheartedly accepted me for me. Perhaps one has to hit the bottom to see through the nonsense that was up top, that was their top. My goals have changed, my priorities have changed, and I think with that, my entire well-being has changed. I'm not mad, I'm not angry, I'm not physically any better, but I am so much more at ease. I'm simply me, ready for my life to start. the right one.
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