Thursday, January 31, 2013

I survived!

okay, so that last one got a little self-pitying.  Today I had my stitches out and my jaw freeed! Hallelujah, free at last.  It is amazing what not eating out of a syringe can do for the soul.  Most of the hospital memories are waning, and I once we get my eyes to close on their own (small, technical problem), we should be good to go. It is over.  And, I might add, the number on the scale being four pounds lower than it was last week might be trying to compensate for the pain. 

Monday, January 28, 2013

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Mama is having some work done

Hmmm, if I were to have some work done what would would it be? Arms, I'd get my arms slimmed out, always wanted skinny arms.

Sadly, this is not cosmetic. I'm getting a metal jaw on Wednesday. Or metal joints that cushion the jaw. Who knows. We replaced the original joints with new ones made out of my ears about 18 months ago. That surgery has a 95% success rate, yet you know me and odds. Besides being completely scared out of my mind tonight and using Tim Riggins on replay to calm my fears, I can't help but sit and be grateful for a nice hospital to get to go to and good doctors to take care of me; too many do not have the same. Wish me luck!

Does this mean I'm going to beep in airports?

Thursday, January 10, 2013

M's vs N's

It always amazes me the vast difference between md's and alternative docs (nd's). Md's look at my lab work and see nothing wrong and send me off for yet another psych eval, which I luckily pass (I'm not crazy M'Lynn). Well, not crazy enough, I guess.

Today I entered the World of alternative medicine, again. Back in 2008, out of sheer desperation, I spent a year with an overly zealous guy who starved me, earth-drugged me, and took thousands of dollars I barely had. He kind if reminded me of a cult leader, and with the 40 pills daily of each herb he had me swallowing, I thought he might be overdoing it.

Alternative medicine has always been in the back of my head though, as I've realized that western medicine, be it as advanced as it is, can do nothing for me but get my hopes up and then label me a head case. You could say I'm just not sick enough for it.

I skeptically went to a homeopath recommended to me by a bishop whose wife was near death and found relief with. She sat down, heard my story, looked at my labs, and declared me half dead. The same labs that the docs declared were just fine showed huge red flags to her. Then the weird symptoms I described made her eyes bulge (ie: 15 cavities since I've been sick....15 people....and I don't eat candy or drink soda), the crazy seizure like episodes that would put me in the back of ambulances in the early days, the 60/35 blood pressure, etc. All of these things that I bring up to md after md and they just shrug their shoulders and up my happy
pills (anger issues with the docs, much?)

So here we go, taking the herbs, the potions, the tonics, the really big bills again. I will say how
impressed I was with the sheer knowledge of this woman, how each problem affected each system, etc. 'Wow,' I thought, 'she really gets it.'
So here's to old hope again, may it one day align with the Lord's timing
and make me whole again. (and less angry with medical professionals).